So.. There's this boy.. & i think he has my heart?? (sry so very long)?

He is my best friend, has been for 4 1/2 yrs. after about a yr or 2 of knowing him i fell for him, i told him i love him & @ the time he had a gf so he turned me dwn. eventually him & tht grl broke up and he called me one night & tld me, we talked like we did, we talked for hrs on the fone, he knew how i felt about him. See, both of us wer kinda goin down the wrong path. we both suffered 4rm depression. i dealt w/ it by cutting, & he dealt w/ his by weed, alcohol & the wrong group of friends.. which eventually gt him sent 2 jail for 1 yr. The problem is for yrs i got mixed signals. we talked a lot & we hav the same interests in a lot of things we pretty much hav been eachothers support, weve always been there 4 eachother even @ 1am wen i had a emergency i didnt ask my parents, r my other friends, i called him n he answered n talked 2 me thru my problems n helped me. i stopped harming myself, an ironically, he started i talked to him gav him all the lectures he gave me bt he didnt listen cuz he was also smoking/drinking. I yelled thru txts n ovr the fone how much i love him n hw blind he is cuz he cant even see love wen its slappin him right in his face. i could go months w/out seeing/talking 2 him n then out of nowhere he'd pop up an all he wuld hav 2 do is look me in the eyes n there all thos feelings were tht i thought went away. I ended up meeting sum1 else, theres a age dif. but we saw eachother n talked, n laughed n we fell 4 one another. my ma didnt approve so we argued alot. I ended up moving in w/ him 1 yr ago weve been dating 2 yrs-1 yr secretly things were great in the beginning perfect, bt in the bak of my mind i culdnt stop thnkn bout my ol' friend. my bf knos bout this ol'friend i "used" 2 hav feelings 4 n he didnt want me seeing/talking to him well, b4 my ol best friend got sent 2 jail we snuck around n saw eachother n tlkd. i told him i love my boyfriend, but i still have feelings for him & i think im in love with him still. i asked him, i said "Before U get sent off 4 a yr i need you to tell me, please jus tell me how yu truly feel bout me ik there is sumthing there, I love you! nobody will change taht, obviously, its been 31/2 yrs an im still telling yu i love you.".. He replied with: "I love you too" i said yu mean as a friend right, or what...? and he said "As more than a friend" I jumped 4 joy lol. i saw him later tht night & he kissed me. I told him id wait 4 him rite here 4 him 2 get out & id write him while he was in jail. And i did, (w/out my bf knowing) well, my bf found out, wasnt happy lol i had 2 earn his trust bak, he forbidded me from talking 2 my ol' friend. so i culdnt see or tlk 2 him again. i am still w/ my current bf n this "ol' friend" hasnt left my mind ive had dreams bout us n hw we used 2 hang out n tlk. the last dream i had about him involved me seeing him @ a school & i ran into his arms n jumped on him n hugged n i said "oh, im sorry, i just, well, i miss you" & he said "i have 2 tell yu, im sorry i never told yu before i love you , really, really love you i know ur with sum1 & i am 2 but i am only with her becuz i cant be with yu, i am so sorry i never told you befor an i am so sorrry i hurt yu in the past but i am so in love with you i always have been"... then i woke up lol..... So I was wondering is this A sign I am still in love with him or still have feelings 4 him or tht he does love me or tht we should be 2gether or what?! please i need sum interpretation i am so confused idk what this means i havent known for years i jus need sum advice/help..